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 and i hate it already. like i hate my fucking family. i wish my mom was alive. or at least i died instead of her... better yet.. i wished my brother and fucking father died. they are the reason for my unhappiness and me being miserable. they even ruined my wedding was suppose to happen this month. so it pretty much got cancelled. they are over controlling and pretty much abusive. my mom was never like this!!! this is rather sad and pathetic at my age. i'm a fucking adult. i want to see the friends IDO HAVE or my bf. pretty much, i'll probably end up breaking up with him.. or he'll do it first. i'm sure of it. i'm disabled with special needs so i don't work. i don't have any money... the money i did HAVE was stolen by my brother. so yeah.. can't go to a hotel or get an uber. sucks don't it ? can't go to a shelter cuz they are booked up. my brother is asshole who hides aspirin and food from me. i'm pretty sure that is a form of abuse.. i get headaches often and blames me for being on the computer. he's on the computer 24//7 and games.. more than i do. calling the kettle black eh ? and plus i have very bad teeth which cannot be helped. what am i suppose to do???? like fuck him. i'm not even in the mood to celebrate christmas this year. i want no part of it. like i don't want to be around them at all. i don't even want their fuckin gifts either. i never get shit i ask for every year now. at least my fuckin mother tried when she was alive!!! they don't. always say money this, money that. sick of their lies and excuses. maybe, get off ur fat ass and get a real job instead working from home. doing youtube shit ain't a real job, moron.

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Questions are from thefridayfive.

1. What's your favourite TV network?
I'm not sure I have one.

2. If you could create your own channel, what would it be?
A music channel featuring obscure music videos.

3. What TV show did you watch as a child that you wish they would bring back?
None of them, please! I generally hate reboots.

4. What show have you always hated, and wonder why they ever made such a dumb show?
There are plenty of dumb TV shows, but the first one that comes to mind is Two and a Half Men; I don't know why. But it fits the bill!

5. What TV show's seasons would you buy on DVD?
Anything! I like owning physical media.

 stop putting the damn cat in MY room. last time i fuckin checked.. i didn';t get the car. YOU DID SO STOP PUTTING HER IN MY ROOM!!! i have her in my room enough as it is. you barely take care of her. put her in your fucking room. fuckin asshole.

 i hate you. i blame you. its all your fault for making my mother run off and kill her like that. even if you didn't physically kill her. you drove her to be overly stressed and making her health downhill. now.. my health is going extremely downhill.. ever since her passing and even now. now, i have to fucking deal with you giving me too much stress.. my hair is already falling out everyday. i have to fuckin listen to you SLAM THE FUCKIN DOORS AND CABINETS IN THIS HOUSE. FUCKING STOP IT!!

i wish you died instead... of her.. she didn't deserve it. the pain and suffering. because of your insufferable smoking.. her lungs were all black and hurt to cough. yet you say smoking does not cause black lungs. excuse you.. but she was around you for several years and got that way!!! because of YOU~!!! even im fuckin around you half the time and probably got bad lungs and dont know it. so don't fuckin tell me otherwise.. the things she wished like take me to the mall and walk around. last thing she done was gave me the last hug... and her last phone call to me... and she kept a book, even wrote i was her guardian angel. no one in this family cared... other than myself. its sad.. pretty damn sad. i always watched her when she was sick and kept her company when i could.

i tried.. my best.. and hardest.. i really did.. i just give up in this life.

 they ask what is wrong and little they don't know, they ruined my fucking wedding.. aka my family.. for being over controlling.. verbally and physically abusive. i hope they FUCKING get what comes for them soon. cause.. i'm done. i dont wanna be alive anymore.. if i have to kill myself.. i will fuckin do it..

this year was nothing bad over bad... im not even in the fuckin mood for the holiday season this year so fuck it.

Questions from thefridayfive.

1. What's one of the nicest things a friend has ever done for you?
My sister took me to see our favorite band (Pulp)!

2. What's one of the nicest things a stranger has ever done for you?
Bought me cigarettes when I was short on money.

3. What is a trait in another person that you instantly admire, and that draws you to them?
Authenticity.

4. What is a trait in another person that instantly repels you, and prevents you from forming a close relationship with them?
Vanity.

5. Time to vent: tell us about something rotten someone has done to you.
I'm not in the mood to vent, but there's been plenty!

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